I’m going to be really honest here: I have no time for whiners. One of the common situations on My 600 lbs Life is the patient crying over their “helpless” lifestyle or whining about how Dr. Nowzaradan ‘doesn’t understand [my] situation.’ Neither evokes any sympathy from me. It’s not that I’m heartless or that I don’t understand. Having been 438+ lbs with arthritis in both knees, lower back issues and some other health problems, yes, I understand feeling utterly helpless and alone in the face of problems which you created. Having also been told by an arrogant bariatric surgeon that I have plenty of time to exercise, yes, I walked out that b*stard’s office and never returned. I assure you: I know what it feels like to be alone, misunderstood, overwhelmed and helpless.
However, those feelings of helplessness and being utterly alone are the problem; they are not the solution! After I left that jerk of a bariatric surgeon’s office, even though I never went back to see him, that doesn’t mean that I stopped looking for a solution for my obesity. It just means I found something else! Unfortunately, too many of us hit roadblocks and obstacles that might at first glance seem insurmountable (or even take a few tries to get over them) and we give up instead of trying to get over them or find a way around them.
For me, the idea of exercising at 438+ was just a stupid idea. For starters, my schedule would have me exercising at 5:00 a.m. or earlier or 8:00 p.m. or later, and at a time in my life when falling asleep on my daily commute was a very real danger, that was an idiotic idea, even without the pain from using a treadmill, which is what I would have tried doing. “Hmm, let’s take more time away from sleeping and cram in some painful exercise, so I can be in more pain and more exhausted when I get in the car to drive for two hours!” Can we say “not a good idea?” Don’t get me wrong: exercise is a great thing and when you are getting enough sleep and you aren’t hurting yourself, it can really add to your energy level and helps with mental clarity as well. But the caveats are there: you need to be healthy enough to exercise otherwise you are just adding stress and damage to your body! That’s what the doofus of a bariatric surgeon wasn’t understanding: after meeting with me for fifteen minutes max, he felt he knew me and my lifestyle well enough to pronounce that I had plenty of time to exercise!
I realize that in a lot of ways, I am sounding exactly like Dr. Now’s whiny patients! “He doesn’t understand my situation!” Truthfully, maybe he did and maybe he didn’t, but the bottom line is instead of trying to help me find any kind of solution, he made a blanket proclamation and that was the end of it. Dr. Nowzaradan will send a physical therapist or offer some kind of assistance to help his patients move forward. He also does a more comprehensive physical exam than the jerk I saw, who didn’t know that I had arthritis in both knees because I didn’t know I had arthritis in both knees and he didn’t even do an x-ray to find out!
It’s really easy to fall into the trap of being helpless and misunderstood, and then we compound the problem by continuing to justify how helpless we are and how no one understands us. It makes us feel vindicated in someway. What we don’t realize is that when we do that, we are essentially walling ourselves up in our excuses and reasons why we can’t get over whatever obstacle is in our way. It reminds me of a scene from an old little-known movie that I loved when I was kid: Support Your Local Sheriff with James Garner, Walter Brennan and Bruce Dern. It was a comedy-western in which James Garner falls into the job of sheriff at a boomtown which is so new that the jail has no bars on the cells. Bruce Dern, the son of local bully Walter Brennan who runs the town, is arrested and thrown in the barless jail and tricked into staying there until the bars are installed on the walls and windows. When his dad and brothers try pulling out the bars on the window, Dern tells him that it won’t work- the bars are too well set into the cement, and when they comically fall off their horses, Dern tells them “I told you so!” Brennan snaps that how would a nitwit like him know the bars are set in so good, and Dern smugly tells him “Because I helped put them in!” The joke is that Bruce Dern’s character literally imprisoned himself in that jail, but all he sees is that he was right and his dad was wrong.
We do this when we justify why we can’t exercise or why we can’t lose weight or why no one can help us. When we give up and cry, we are keeping ourselves locked in a jail of our own making. We don’t look for a way out or a way around the obstacle because we are so busy finding reasons why we can’t! We have tunnel vision so all we see is what is in our way rather than looking for any kind of solution. It’s easy to sit here and spout platitudes like “don’t be part of the problem- be part of the solution!” Seriously, platitudes bug me because we hear them all the time and they’ve become part of the background noise that we filter out. For instance, the idiot surgeon I met with told me “nothing tastes as good as thin feels!” Yeah, except I don’t know how ‘thin feels’ so that little gem means nothing to me! I can sit here and tell you all to ‘be part of the solution!’ but unless you know how to look for that solution or even what a possible solution might be, I might as well tell you to pick up a few snipes while you’re out looking for that solution!
The point is that when we feel the urge to sit and cry or justify why we can’t do whatever, this is where we need to remind ourselves to change our focus. Instead of telling people “I’ve got arthritis in both knees, a pin in one, screws in one wrist and bone spurs and degenerative disc disease in my back so I can’t exercise!,” find an exercise or some kind of activity that you can do! In my case, using a treadmill will only aggravate those problems for me, but using a pool doesn’t, so I use the pool. I’ve got a rotator cuff that bothers me when I do certain exercises in the pool, so I modify those exercises when we do them in class. I don’t not do them: I find a way around the obstacle! It takes a little practice to remind yourself to stop the whining and justifications and find the way over or around the problem. Honestly, it’s even okay if you want to have a little tantrum/ pity party for a few moments before you go looking for your solution (I’ve been known to have some real beauts!) Ultimately, it’s all your own choice: you can find a way out of that jail you made for yourself, or you can help put the bars in!